Jan 23, 2012

My What Ifs

It seems that I haven't been the only one feeling a little let down this January.  My hubby is heading off for a five day golf trip with the boys.  To California.  Where the sun shines.  And I'm going to work and try to finish my WIP. 

So as I was laying in bed, coughing, mad that I'm coughing instead of sleeping, I got thinking about how my life could look different.  Understand that I'm very aware of the statistics with writers, that if I'm comparing my paycheck between my teaching job and what I will probably make writing, neither is going to make Forbes, but I'm a writer and have a vivid imagination, so I started day (night?) dreaming.

What if I got an awesome agent who read my book and laughed and cried and had to call me too late one night to tell me how well I'd nailed it?  What if that agent then called me again later, saying her editor friends at all the amazing places had the same reaction?  What if I sold my book and the money situation let me decide whether or not I wanted to keep my current job?

Good place to start - right?  I mean, all the positive, motivational speaker type people out there say that we have to imagine our dreams before they can become a reality. 

So I'm not going to stop there.

What if I ended up having the money to turn the crap shed in my back yard into a pretty little writer's piece of heaven?  With red walls, and a red and white damask writing chair.  And a little fireplace.  And a small fridge full of Diet Coke. 

What if I got to meet people from around the country at writing conferences and book signings?  What if I had to stress over what I'd look like because someone wanted to put me and my book on TV?

These aren't the reasons I write.  I write because I love it, because I have characters in my mind who have a story to tell and because it has allowed me to find my sanity. 

But what if I got even one of these what ifs?

What are your what ifs? What are the dreams you let yourself have that are maybe just a little to big?  What are you doing today to grow into them? 

26 comments :

Rosalyn said...

Tasha--I need to borrow some of your optimism! I'm usually scared to indulge in too many what-ifs, because the basic philosophy my mom drilled in me growing up was, "If you don't expect too much, you won't be disappointed." It's hard to shake that, even as a grown-up. But a great agent would be a nice start!

Melanie Fowler said...

I honestly think that one of my biggest 'what-ifs' is

What if I can get published.

I mean I work hard, and I love to write. I'm determined to put my crazy imagination down on paper, and what if I can get published.

That is not why I started to write, but it has become a help and motivation to keep me going.

Alex J. Cavanaugh said...

My big what if is what if my books became movies?

David P. King said...

My ultimate dream is to have one of my stories adapted for the big screen. I was raised near Hollywood, so the movie making culture is very much ingrained with me. Now, if I can just get a debut deal ...

You should check out my blog. It just might make your day. :)

Dianne K. Salerni said...

Those are some great What Ifs! Like Rosalyn above, I grew up learning to think small, so as not to be disappointed, so it's hard for me to let myself fantasize too much.

I have a lot of hooks in the water right now -- a book coming out next year and two manuscripts to go on submission later this year. But the biggest What If involves the screenplay for my first book. I recently received news that was fairly promising.

There are some REALLY exciting What Ifs involved in this possibility, so I did fantasize a bit when I got the news. However, the IF part is pretty big, and I've heard no follow up in the last couple weeks, so ... it might end up nothing but a fantasy.

What If is still a tricky business for me.

Cassie Mae said...

Oh I love your what ifs! They are mine too :)

Annalisa Crawford said...

Sadly, my daydreams of being successful used to focus on being a recluse who just popped up every couple of years with a new book. In these days of author-focused marketing, I doubt that will ever come true. I suppose that's not really the 'big' dream you asked about, more a very very small one.

Angela Cothran said...

I'm a bit of a slow writer and I worry--what if I do get published and can't meet my deadline? This is my biggest fear. But more then the money I dream of people reading my books :)

Susanna Leonard Hill said...

I love your what-ifs! A lot are the same as mine :) Keep right on dreaming big! And may I have a little writer's cabin like that too? It sounds idyllic! :)

Emily R. King said...

I love how you want to use your money to fix your crap shed. It's so what I would say! No pedicures or manicures for this gal, not while the shed is falling a part!
Thanks for sharing your "what ifs?" Tasha. You've got great dreams!

S.P. Bowers said...

What ifs are fun and I dare say necessary. Never stop dreaming. Of course we need to be just as happy with whatever reality we end up with but if we keep working towards our what ifs some of it will come true.

A little writing place all my own is pretty high on my list too.

Jenny S. Morris said...

I love your what ifs, and that your positive attitude. I just my let it rub off on me.

Laura Josephsen said...

You have great what-ifs. I always figure if something big were to happen with one of my books, it would be awesome and I'd be shocked, LOL. I

Coleen Patrick said...

I definitely did the what ifs when I was younger. My sister reminded me today that we used to love to draw out blueprint plans for our dream homes. I like being reminded of the those moments and times when I created what ifs so easily (seemingly without fear when I was younger) and that reminder gives me a boost. :)

Tara Tyler said...

i love your what ifs! i sometimes day dream about what if i get an agent? i'll have to conquer my fear of traveling to new york city!

Clarissa Draper said...

What if someone came to me and said, "You're the reason I write"?

Stina Lindenblatt said...

I'm loving your what ifs.

My big one would be if a teen comes up to me and says I'm the reason she's still alive. Now that would be really cool. :D

Leigh Covington said...

So fabulous Tasha! Good for you. I'm glad to see someone reaching for the stars and dreaming big. I think too often we mention the "small" dreams because we don't want to admit our true hopes, but you're right - we have to dream it and believe it to make it happen! Love this!

Laura Pauling said...

if a writer told me that at times they don't dream about the what ifs - I wouldn't believe them! :) We all dream to be successful and we work hard to get there.

Patricia T. said...

I write because it makes me happy, I'm having a ball, I'm meeting terrific new writers and I'm finally following my passion.

Karen Akins said...

Well, some of my what-ifs have already come true, so right now I'm dealing with the reality of, "Hey, even if the other what-ifs come true, my life will still probably look almost exactly the same. Hmmm." Not bad or even disappointing, necessarily. Just reality.

Peggy Eddleman said...

Awww! I love your what ifs! Yes, I definitely have a million of my own. One that's been getting me a lot lately: RH said they are going to market my book as the next CITY OF EMBER, and are going to encourage classroom sets. I work as an aide in 4th grade. I walk into one of the classrooms every morning and my eyes immediately go to their classroom set of CITY OF EMBER, and and I allow myself a small moment of "What if one day that's my book sitting there?" I could die of happiness.

Sophia Chang said...

First - it's freezing butt-a@@ cold in California right now, the sun hasn't shone in about 6 months and it actually RAINED on and off for the past week. So you're not missing aything! :)

And if I didn't have these what if's I'd probably be writing at a WAY slower pace than I am. I NEED that fire of what if - it's not a what if to me, it's a WHEN.

welcome to my world of poetry said...

My what if is: What if my book sell increase. started well but has slowed down.

Yvonne.

Kim Van Sickler said...

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we named your blog as one to pass the award on to. Now you get to do the honors. Congrats!

David P. King said...

Hey, Tasha!

Would you shoot me an email with either your email address or home address so I can place the giveaway order? Thanks!

dpowersking[at]gmail[dot]com