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This post comes from the fact that my WIP is blowing up in my face. I started in on some revisions, because it needed to be sorted out, and it's for an adult audience so it's okay for it to be a longer book, but it's scaring the livin' daylights out of me.
But I'm stubborn (no, really) and up for the challenge and keep growing my story, developing the characters better, really embracing the challenge of a book that is too hard for me to write.
The lingering question still remains - am I a good enough writer to write this story? I can write research papers and discuss the theme of wisdom in 16th century literature, but can I write this book?
And then I hear people who say the first novel is a practice novel - one to really figure out how to write - which completely breaks my heart because I'm putting a serious amount of work into this...too much to have it just be for practice. Flash fiction is practice. Little side exercises are practice. A whole practice novel?!?
Those of you who are agented, querying and published - did the first book make it? How many of you, at any phase of writing, had your first be the practice? Am I overly emotional for clinging to this one like I married it?