But I saw a glimpse of what I want in my future as a writer.
I want to see people, passing my book back and forth with enthusiasm, giggling (though the giggles will probably be older), loving it so much they HAVE to share it with a friend.
I have been a bit frustrated this year with NaNo because I'm at the really hard part of a book, the part I've never written, an end. The emotion it draws out of me to write some of these scenes literally leaves me exhausted 1000 words in. And while I wanted to really nail NaNo this year, even had a book plotted out-ish and ready to rock, I couldn't not finish this other book first.
I keep reminding myself that the big picture is essential. Winning NaNo doesn't mean anything if I'm not proud of what comes out of it. It doesn't mean anything if it disrupts my process so significantly that the amount I can actually use come December 1st is minuscule at best. It doesn't mean anything if it takes me away from the story I'm supposed to tell, in the way I'm supposed to tell it.
So, to those of you who thrive on cranking out words at light speed, I applaud you. I'm in awe of you because I'm not now nor will I ever be that fast. And to those of you who are a bit more like me, just remember the key is to keep moving forward, writing our best in the way that allows that to happen. And while we sit on the side of the freeway, watching the other writers fly past us with MS's in hand, we can still celebrate our progress as well.
Do you find satisfaction from speed work (can you do it?)? Are you a slower writer like me? Have you finished NaNo already? What brings you the most joy in your writing process?
I'm going to take the rest of the week off from blogging - need some rejuvenation time. Hope you and yours in the US have a joyful Thanksgiving and everyone can find a way to enjoy the preparations for the upcoming holiday season.